Be not afraid of growing slowly; be afraid only of standing still.

http://www.halfthesky.org/ I borrowed this phrase from Half the Sky. They have my heart. So do sooooo many other charities (like the one who gives the gift of clean drinking water http://www.a-childs-right.org/ ). I voted for Jenny Brown to run in the Olympics http://www.chinadaily.com.cn/olympics/torch_page.html . I voted for what she represents and loves most in this world: these children. I believe in her. I believe in the amazing responsibility we have for all the children worldwide to be their advocate, to be their voice when they haven't found theirs yet. I'm like Sandra Bullock on Miss Congeniality at the end when she says she really does want world peace. I want World Peace and no more world hunger. I want it more than I can express.

It has been my dream to adopt since I was 4 or 5 and now it's finally becoming a reality. Not only has adoption opened the road to parent a child who needs me as much as I need them, but it has made me a better wife, mother, world citizen and human being. It has opened my eyes to so many issues facing this world and the realities of what I really can do about them. I have big plans!!! HUGE! I am a stay at home mom and am happy raising my children. But when they are in school, no lazy mamba jamba here! I'm off to school. I want to not only gain a career but a skill to help these children. I want my children to learn compassion and what better way than by example. I want them to learn how to love truly and unconditionally for everyone. So even though I am 28 and most everyone has careers etc. and I seem to be moving slowly.... Be not afraid of growing slowly; be afraid only of standing still. I'm never going to stand still again and I will get to where I am going... we all will. I have faith in all of us.

California Fires

Last night my husband came home late from work and finally started to fall asleep, when I began screaming in my sleep that the fires were all around us. He immediately leaped out of bed until he realized I was having a dream. I continued that the smoke was too thick and black; that I couldn't see and there was no way out. The roads were closed and how are we going to save the children. He decided it was time to wake me up. When he called my name, I didn't remember a thing and asked him if he was okay and then went back to sleep.

He laughed it off in the morning but that night he thought, "Dang it Wife! Stop watching so much of the fires on tv." I can't. I feel if I don't watch then I somehow disrespect those who are living it. I'm a Cali native and so many of my family and friends live there. This has been hard on me just thinking about and watching it from far away; I can't imagine what they are going through. We will be going to Disneyland this weekend so I guess I shouldn't look out the window or my husband is going to get 2 hotel rooms or some ear plugs.

My heart and prayers go out to all of those who have been affected by this and may our Heavenly Father comfort them. Stay Strong Cali!!

Oh and yes, the house is orange and had orange carpet and orange trees and ... is in Orange!

Don't Feed Gizmo After Midnight

I have been trying to figure out how to customize this blog thing for a while now and am about to give up my creative "genius". I could give the reigns to my husband but giving him a computer is....feeding GIZMO!!! He's amazingly creative and brilliant on pc's but if I ask for help.... you'll never see me again! You'd probably get a wide array of insanity just because he thinks he's funny and I wouldn't know how to change it. So should I give you guys something better to look at by breaking down or let you suffer? hmmmm

FIRST POST EVER!!!!

Congratulations to me!!! I finally was brave enough to set up a blog. Typing on blogs and chats sometimes feels like yelling out into the abyss or some vacant woods, so I might be a rambling mindless mama at times. My husband will laugh because he is not the type for blogs. He'll probably hunt me down if I put up pics of him so we might have to blur faces. haha I come from a family of 12 (9 siblings, 2 parents + ME) so I love company. I don't do abbreviations really so pardon my old school long hand. Our daughter Nika is 7, son Kole is 3 and daughter Jadyn is 1 (17 months). We are adopting a little girl from Taiwan. I compare my children to alot of animals, lovingly of course. I just spent a lot of my time as a child reading a massive animal encyclopedia. Obviously, you will learn lots of useless facts and extract tons of silly stories from my blog so feel free to laugh along with me!

We should be doing our homestudy... aaannnyy miinnuteee! Hopefully sooner than later as that is what starts the wait time until referral in Taiwan adoption. My little ones keep asking when she will be here and I get antsy along with them. I enjoy our children so much that it makes the adoption seem slower because I know of the added fun to come!