BLURT

Nika made a CHAIR from megabloks.

This is the cute little girl who is on Milana's toy package that I couldn't fit in her care package.... it looks a bit like her.

Kole playing with Milana's new toys.

Jadyn playing with Milana's new toys.

Okay this is just a blurt... a blubbering blurt. I never really received any confirmation of whether we truly were in court or not. Well through a twist of fate or slip of tongue (I'll take any info right now & not looking any gift horse in any area right now), I received confirmation that we've been in court 3 months.

Good news, most cases seem to take 3 to 4 months... makes me highly antsy and giddy and eager and anxious and nervous and all that rumbling around in my tummy. So maybe any day any week... this minute... Please.

Bad News, also got confirmation that it could be another 3 months for us to finish court. Not happy about that but having some sort of idea of a "due date" it's takes some of the "swelling outta my feet" so to speak.

Also, there aren't any updates of photos... their usually isn't. We'll probably make up for it when we pick her up as most foster families bring photos and toys & clothes etc. to send off with their/our little one (yes, for some time, our little one is their's, absolutely in love with them and so it is right to say that she is their's as well... I have more than enough room to share more love with my daughter from any side of the planet). I love LOVE... I'll take every bit I can get... makes you feel great.

Anyways, side-tracked. I also had a melt down this last week or two... I was so antsy waiting for final and photos that I think anything could set me off. Well turns out it was a play on words or names I should say.

I received a Christmas Card from our agency... I loved it. My husband and children loved it. They sent it to David and Sarah... I'm Sara (no 'h' required) and my husband is Donald. His Dada is David, his brother is David, his uncle is David.... he is no David. Next comes looking for photos. I was checking and checking and instead of photos... I received another name change. Someone added the last names to the pic site and my last name was mispelled to where it became a body part! I became The Brains!

I started bawling! I called my hubby, blubbering, "They think we're The Brains." mmwwhhaaaa it wasn't pretty... he started laughing and I kept saying... It's not funny while stifling laughter. Next came me calling a few friends of mine (whom I thank from the bottom of my heart) and there was crying and understanding and maybe some laughs.

Then I "washed my hands"... I can't let this swallow me up. I'm a strong happy person (at least I think so)... so now I'm on a positive side a bit I guess... trying to be happy. I have so much in my life to be grateful for. My children are so funny because they've been enjoying mom's scatterbrained-ness lately. The other day, I played Dominos with them in my pj's for 2 hours before I realized what I was doing!

SO give me silver linings... anything. I know it's getting closer... how close, I have no idea. I'm going to focus on writing my packing list, planning my trip, focusing on pictures i will get when I arrive, possibly the foster family I'll meet and some families have received not only pictures but albums and clothes and toys... things that we missed putting on her and taking photos of and playing with her, but that she will want to look back on and so will we imagining what it was like. Yes that was a run on sentence... oh well.... p.s. I always forget to spell chack too! ha ha

Silver lining: We know who we are waiting for (so many families do not know yet who they are waiting for and it is heartwrenching).

We are in court: there are friends who have been waiting and trying so hard to make it into court despite huge obstacles and my heart goes out to them.

3 months down, 3 to go... half full! Right?

Milana has a picture book of us... she has seen us!

Someday, I'll be able to show all of you the cuteness that is Milana... yo

We've sent care package with tidbits of home... somehow able to bridge this gap a little.

Someday, this gap will close and we WILL be an eternal family.

Story: Jadyn is certain Milana is no longer in Taiwan anymore and is searching for her... she says that she is at Grandma's house. In the grocery store, she ran up to this little Asian girl, nose to nose and stared into her eyes. Her shoulders slumped after a period of time and she walked off... "not her". Kole has decided that Milana should have Spiderman socks that are too small... those are pretty precious to him. Nika every once in a while, yells out, "Enough is enough!" "When is this done?" "We've waited long enough!" My husband never forgets her in family prayer; I can hear it in his voice, "I want her home." Keeping it together for the troops.... attempting.